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01. Introduction

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I was born on the Yakima Indian Reservation in Washington State and my early childhood was spent treading water in a cesspool of racism and alcoholic desperation. I spent the fifth grade in Abilene Texas which was then part of the segregated South and I had my first experiences with Black/White segregation and Southerner vs Northerner animosity. After Abilene, the remainder of my childhood was spent in bland blond Southern California. I was segregated/expelled from the Orange Glen Elementary school for refusing to conform to the local dress code. I expressed my adolescent angst through poetry, growing hair, playing drums, acting, and writing plays. When I was sixteen I dropped out, tuned in and turned on. I came to San Francisco for the first time for the Summer of Love and eventually moved there for the gay disco seventies. I was very interested in film making as a young adult and attended the Art Institute briefly in San Francisco and also took various classes at City College of San Francisco. Practically my entire life is documented through 8 mm, super-8 and video and can be found on my youtube channel, sylvanro. On this website, I am putting my life and videos in order and using video, photographs and other sources, I am creating a multimedia autobiography. 

What makes old men want to write about their lives? Why would I think that anyone would have any interest in reading about my life? For me, I don't think it has anything to do with the reader at all. It is more the need of the writing of it for me. When you are young and living your life, it feels like it will go on forever and then you see this person die and that person die and you realize the finality of it all. When you are young, life seems so slow and you are always eager to get to the next thing or the next part of it. You are eager to see the new thing or meet the new lover. Then one day it all changes and looking back, it seems like it has gone in a flash. You were so busy living life, that you realize you never really took much time to think about and reflect on it. Mortality is raising it's ugly head and you realize you are in the last act and that there is a last act. 

If the reader is interested at all, maybe it will be from an anthropological perspective. I tell the story of one common man that takes place over the last few decades of the twentieth century. This is not the story of fame or wealth or great sociological achievement. My story is just one story out of millions taking place in the last half of one milleneum and the beginning of a new milleneum. It is a story of a common man, a gay man, born to parents that had migrated to Washington State from Arkansas and Texas. There is probably nothing particularly special about my story that is any more special than the stories of all the other millions of stories taking place during this period, but from an anthropological perspective, I did participate fully in the cultural sociological changes taking place in this period. I participated in the dance crazes of the late fifties and was a hippie in the sixties. I was a homosexual in the gay disco seventies and watched my friends die in the plague of the eighties. I fell in love and became a part of the middle class suburbia of the nineties.,

I do think of my life as having been rather chaotic and another purpose of writing this story is to sort out some of that chaos and to try to put events in some chronological order since, as I begin, events just seem jumbled together and mixed up. My goal is to go from the beginning to now, and untangle the fragments of moments that were captured on 8 millimeter film, super-8 or in photographs or audio tapes and combine them with memories still retained in what brain cells I have left to form a coherent story. I do think of my life as having been a great adventure and I just want to organize the chapters of that adventure. These chapters will include stories of art, drugs, sex, music, murder and mayhem.

The struggle I guess that any author has, is the struggle with truth and how much of that truth does one tell? The people in my story are real and have their own memories and perceptions of the events in my life and their own feelings. I want to be sensitive to the feelings of others and my intention is not to hurt anyone in telling the stories of my life. Some of the people I mention in my story are deceased and I apologize to them for not having had the opportunity to set anything straight that they would have wanted to set straight. I'm sure it is possible that I misunderstood various intentions through my life. I wish no one ill will and am only telling the truth from my perspective... or at least as much as I feel I can tell without hurting anyone's feelings who is still living. If there is anything in my story that offends you, or a story that isn't complete or one that you saw a different way, please let me know and I will try to edit to accomodate the memories of others too.

Besides my concern for the feeling's of others, I have egocentric reasons to minimize or de-emphasize certain episodes of my life. I don't know if others will find that dishonest but it is the perogative of being the author I think. It is not so much that I have any regrets, as I have learned from every experience and every experience cntributed to the adventure, but there are some things I have done in my life that I am not particularly proud of and will spare the reader some of those episodes and details. The reader will know that I lived through the sixties and participated fully in the counter-culture and all that entailed but some of the details of excess will not be included in this tome. There were rare times in my youth when my body was my only perceived asset that I could use to get a few dollars to pay the rent or buy some food. My sense of morality has evolved through my life and my morals today are not necessarily the same as my morals at other times in my life. The reader will know that I came of age during the sexual revolution and I was at least as promiscuous as anyone else was, if not more so, but I will not go into the details of those excesses either. Suffice it to say that it was some kind of miracle that I survived the eighties when so many of my contemporaries of the time did not. Besides these caveats, I will try for as much honesty as possible in these pages but that will be tempered too by my narcissistic need for an old man's need for his dignity as well. 

I have been reincarnated multiple times over the span of my years. Each decade almost seems like a different lifetime: There was the chaotic and fragmented 1950's childhood of wishing on many stars and wanting to fly away with Peter and the lost boys; the hippie 60's where I expanded my consiousness; there was the gay disco 70's where I really discovered sex and my sexuality; there was the plagued eighties of death and dying where almost everyone I knew previously was lost to a hateful scourge; then came the resurection and escape to the suburbs nineties; and now the reflective double oughts.

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Cockettes & Angels of Light- Click for story
Me in my 20's in 1970's- Click for story.
Where I was born- Click for story.
2015- 2nd Gay Cruise- Click for story.
Darlene Marries Chuck- Click for story.
Me in 3rd grade- Click for story.
2001 Trip to Cancun- Click to read story.
My Mother- Click for more photos.
Gay Disco 70's- Click for story
Earthquake! Click to read story.
The Psychedelic Experience- Click to read story.
Beatle haircut- Click for story.
Me in first grade- Click for story.
1974- On Larkin Street- Click for story.
2001 Trip to Cancun- Click to read story.
Photos of Dad & His Family- Click for story.
1964- Luv Please- Click for story.
1974- First Trip to Europe- Click to read story.
Palouse- Click for story
1967- Summer of Love- Click to read story.
1957-1958 1st Grade- Click to read story.
2014- Road trip to San Diego- Click for story.
1958-1959- 3rd Grade- Click to read story.
2005 Darlene Visit for Gay Pride- Click for story.
4th Grade- Click for story.
1982-1993 Waller Street- Click to read story.
5th Grade in Abilene Tx- Click for story
Summer of Love- Click to read story.
Forbidden Dreams of Love- Click for story.
Escondido 1960's- Click for story
Amber- Click to read story.
Click to read "Introduction."
1973 "You have to be hurt..." Click to read the story.
Second Gay Cruise- Click for story.
2015- 2nd Gay Cruise- Click to read story.
Grandview- Click for story
Women in Oils- Click for story
2005- Darlene Visits for Gay Pride- Click to read story.
Black Men in Oils- Click to read story
1970's Promiscuity- Click for story.
My Dad's Family- Click for story.
1973- Psych Tech Program- Click for story.

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01. Introduction

03- Dads Family

03- Photos of my Father and his family

04- My Mother's Family

04- Photos of my Mom

04- Video of my Mom

04- Walling Family Reunions

04-Audio Files of My Mom

04. Billie

04. Ole

04.1. Forbidden Dreams of Love

04.2. Flames of Forbidden Love

04.3 Mom Writing Her Life Story

05- Jim Tarbert

05. Roger

1950's Grandview to Toppenish

1957-1958 1st Grade

1958-1959- Third Grade

1959- Palouse

1961- 4th Grade- Last time I wore a dress

1962- Abilene

1963- Escondido- Early 60's

1964- Darlene Marries Chuck

1964- My Beatle Haircut

1964-The Luv Please

1965 or 1966- Steve Castle

1965- In Foster Care

1966 Living with Darlene & Chuck in Seattle

1967- Juvenile Hall

1976- I Praise Thee (poem to Stanley)

1976- My Second Lover, Stanley Dunne

1976- Paul McCartney and Wings

1976-1330 Bush Street #9J

1977- 1667 Haight Street

1977- Trip to San Diego with Mary Jo

1977-1980- Tumultuous Relationship with John Perry

1978- 525 Haight Street

1979- September- Dad is Murdered

1980's- AIDS- Death and Dying

1980- Winter- First Trip to New York

1980- Word, Sound and Power

1981- Milton- Falling in Love

1982-1993 465 Waller Street

1982-1994 Computers to MacNursing

1984- 33rd Birthday

1985- Graduation from Nursing School

1985- Trip to Hawaii (Oahu)

1988- MIdnight Caller

1989- Earthquake!

1991- Aug 10th- Mom Passes Away

1991- Black Males in Oils

1991- Crack of My Life

1993- Move to Vallejo & Our First Home

1995-1. Road Trip to Washington

1995-2. Surprise Trip to Vegas

1995-3. Grandmother Rogers & Aunts Visit Darlene's

1995-4. Amber

1998- Camping at Russian River

2000 -Thoughts about Progressive Christians

2000- Resignation from John George

2001- April- Trip to Cancun

2001- Peace and Justice

2001- September 11th

2002- April-Puerto Vallarta & Blue Bay Getaway

2002- Nov 12th- My Stepfather, George McHenry Passes Away

2003- Trip to D.C. and N.Y.

2004- Feb- Road Trip to Baha Mexico

2004- Walling Family Reunion in Spokane

2005- Christmas Poem

2005- Darlene Visit for Pride Celebration

2005- Trip to Orlando

2005-1. Europe- London

2005-2. Europe- Paris

2005-3. Europe- Venice

2005-4. Europe- Florence

2005-5. Europe- Rome

2005-6. Europe- Athens

2005-7. Knee Surgery & Tongue Biopsy

2006 Christmas Poem

2006- February 23- Times Herald

2006- Palm Springs White Party

2006- Trip to Seattle

2006-July 8th Solano Peace and Justice Coalition BBQ

2007- Feb- Carnival Destiny- Our First Cruise

2007- Tre and Casey Visit

2008- Aug 15-18 Spokane Visit

2008- Psycho Song

2009- Honored by Vallejo Gay Network

2009- Women in Oils

2010 Christmas Poem

2010- Feb. R.C. Mariner of the Seas Mexican Riviera Cruise

2010- June 24- Badlands

2010- Trip to Seattle

2010-1. Europe- Amsterdam

2010-2. Europe- Paris

2010-3. Europe- Barcelona & Sitges

2010-4. Europe- Madrid

2011-1. Feb. My Fabulous 60th Birthday Weekend

2011-2. April- L.A., Palm Springs & "The White Party"

2011-3. Poem- Girl From Medical Lake

2011-4. Old Man Dancing

2011-5. May- Misty and Alex Visit

2011-6. August- Darlene and Sean's Visit

2011-7. Alex 16-18 & Pics

2012- March- Carnival Splendor Mexican Riviera with Family

2013- Wedding

2014- Christmas Poem

2014- First Gay Cruise

2014- September Road Trip to San Diego

2015- Seasonal Affective Blues

2015- Second Gay Cruise

2015- War on Christmas poem

2015-"Badlands" and Gay Bar Etiquette

2015-September 8. Political History

2016 Do Not Speak for Gay Males

2016- April- Palm Springs RV Adventure

4/4/2016- Not Going Along to Get Along

9/4/15- Liberals vs Conservatives

The Psychedelic Experience- Click to read story.
1974- On Larkin Street- Click for story.
Beatle haircut- Click for story.
2005- Darlene Visits for Gay Pride- Click to read story.
Amber- Click to read story.
1958-1959- 3rd Grade- Click to read story.
Where I was born- Click for story.
Forbidden Dreams of Love- Click for story.
Cockettes & Angels of Light- Click for story
Women in Oils- Click for story
Palouse- Click for story
1967- Summer of Love- Click to read story.
Second Gay Cruise- Click for story.
2001 Trip to Cancun- Click to read story.
1964- Luv Please- Click for story.
4th Grade- Click for story.
Me in my 20's in 1970's- Click for story.
1982-1993 Waller Street- Click to read story.
1970's Promiscuity- Click for story.
Darlene Marries Chuck- Click for story.
2005 Darlene Visit for Gay Pride- Click for story.
2014- Road trip to San Diego- Click for story.
Me in 3rd grade- Click for story.
1957-1958 1st Grade- Click to read story.
2015- 2nd Gay Cruise- Click to read story.
My Dad's Family- Click for story.
2015- 2nd Gay Cruise- Click for story.
Summer of Love- Click to read story.
1973- Psych Tech Program- Click for story.
My Mother- Click for more photos.
Earthquake! Click to read story.
1973 "You have to be hurt..." Click to read the story.
Photos of Dad & His Family- Click for story.
Escondido 1960's- Click for story
Grandview- Click for story
Gay Disco 70's- Click for story
5th Grade in Abilene Tx- Click for story
Click to read "Introduction."
Black Men in Oils- Click to read story
2001 Trip to Cancun- Click to read story.
Me in first grade- Click for story.
1974- First Trip to Europe- Click to read story.